Hospital

I come to visit you
Which I barely ever do
I hate to see you in such a state
Where you can’t move
Barely breathe
And are living through a machine
This is my last visit
I know for some reason
I think you’ll die today
The doctors come into the waiting room
Telling me to sit down
They tell me the grave news
I have to see you one last time
I see you lying there
Never to wake
In the dirty hospital bed
My heart is pounding
Millions of knives pierce my skin
Sadness swells up in my throat
So I can’t even breathe
I can’t see
Anything but you
I can’t hear
Anything but your voice
I can still feel
Your touch when you wiped my tears away and said it would be all right
But it’s not
I can’t think about anything but how terrified I am of not having you there to protect me
I never realized how important you were to me
until now
When it’s too late
My stomach feels sick
As I realize
I’ll never see you again

Death

I was there when it happened
When you slowly left this world
I was holding your hand
When it suddenly went limp
I was standing beside you
When your heart finally gave up the fight
When your eyes closed for the last time
I was crying for you
When you slipped away
You couldn’t hold on any longer I guess
I wish we had more fun
The short time while you were alive
That shows me you only have one chance in life
To achieve our goals
And do everything right
I hope I can fulfill your hopes and dreams
So you can look down from wherever you are
and smile at me